[sneaky]

this sucks.

now wondering if i should just walk away from my wife to save her from having to deal with my ****** attitude. it is our 10 year anniversary in a few weeks and we are supposed to be going for a cruise in early november, but i'm struggling to see the relationship lasting the next few weeks to even make the milestone or the holiday.

waiting for new meds (lovan) to kick in. only been on it for 1.5 weeks, but when you add that to the 8 weeks of valdoxan not working and feeling like crap it isn't fun. I was told the first two weeks would suck and mood would go down before improving so i'm hoping for a big upswing in the next few weeks..

this is the third lot of tablets i've tried (pristiq, valdoxan now lovan), wish i could take all the different meds at once to get in a better headspace then slowly remove them one at a time..